Because of the all-encompassing nature of my son’s OCD diagnosis and treatment, I’ve had to step away from some ministry roles within the last month.
There is no denying it – I’m sad about this.
And more than once I’ve found myself questioning whether or not I made the right decision to step away, because of the sadness and disappointment I feel.
“If I’d done what God really wanted me to do, wouldn’t I not be feeling sad?”
“Maybe the disappointment and sadness is telling me I made the wrong choice.”
But God put this verse in my mind this morning:
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.”
~ John 14:1
God kindly paraphrased this in my mind, for my situation:
Just because you’re following Me doesn’t mean you’re immune to negative feelings. Don’t be swayed by them.
Because at the end of the day, I DO feel like the decisions I made were the right ones. And feeling sadness and disappointment about it is normal, I suppose – they were ministries I loved and felt passionate about (I still do!)
But to say that those feelings mean that I didn’t make the right decision is the wrong conclusion. And probably a lie from Satan meant to detract me from what it is God wants me doing right now.
Which is to minister to my family. To my son. To attend to what needs doing at home.